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I am now almost 38 weeks with my twins and really, I can't believe that the day of their arrival is almost here. I will be induced this Friday morning (with twins, they don't let you go past 38 weeks because after that point, their placentas start to break down, they are too cramped and you run a risk of having one baby stillborn). I am so excited to get a look at Baby A, who loves to mess with my sciatic nerve these days, and Baby B, whose feet enjoy my ribcage and who seems to get the hiccups like 900 times a day.
Just this past week, I have been reflecting on this whole insane journey. Back in July, when we found out about all of this, it was such a shock. We weren't trying to get pregnant (contraception - not as foolproof as you would hope). We were done having kids and I was not happy to find myself expecting. Also, I had spent two years trying to get my life back after herniating a disc in my back and spending far too much time in pain and unable to do things and then personally I had some other stuff going on that made the additional stress of pregnancy and more children seem like something I just couldn't do. Upon finding out about these two rug rats, I initially thought it was about the worst news I had heard in a while and I was convinced, with my spine, the pregnancy was going to be one long and painful nightmare.
Funny thing though, I adjusted to the idea of having two more children and then even became excited about the whole thing. Now, I am thrilled we are adding these two to our family and excited about sharing this whole experience with my husband and other two children. And that painful, awful pregnancy I was sure was going to happen. Well, it didn't. I have had an occasional back pain flare up but really my spine has handled the additional weight and physical changes like a champ. Actually, for 38 years old, my body has behaved exceptionally well. No complications, no bed rest, really a very healthy pregnancy. I guess the old gray mare still has it.
I was thinking this week about all of that and how this whole experience is a reminder for me that life has a way of working things out and that getting too far ahead of myself with worrying about how things might be, or why something is happening to me, is really just a waste of time and energy because sometimes, it goes much better than you thought and you get two beautiful little lives joining your family in the process.
